My First 'Experience'
Many of us have experimented with various substances in our younger years, some may still. I found that trap doors are just that. They get you in but they don't necessarily let you out. However, once you find that you can open the door it is much easier to go back and do it naturally. I'm speaking of accessing realms of consciousness of course. Frank Alper, as a newly deemed Baba Ram Das, wrote extensively about the doorways along with Aldous Huxley and Carlos Castaneda. The reality was that it was only a catalyst that opened the mind to new concepts and ideologies of connectedness to ALL THAT IS. The latter being the net result, the life had to move on in the realization of it without the substances involved that opened the doors to perception. A mind that is bored with its current reality seeks stimulation regardless.
Although I'd just recently began experimenting with psychotropics, my first real conscious experience was sitting in my high school study hall, peering at the table in front of me as I had my chin resting on my hands on top of it. As I stared at the table, I began to see layers upon layers of waveforms all nicely nestled into each other, creating the table. The most vivid point was as I could see the layers of the laminates used in the table top. It appeared as though they ebbed and flowed with my breath. The orchestration of their movement was truly amazing at the time. I could literally see the layers as waveforms, undulating to some rhythm that I could not hear....yet. In the next moment as I needed to focus on an external stimulus, I was able to shift consciousness and met the event with as I normally would. Later I mused on the spontaneous shifts in consciousness that happened simply through my attention.
I know that was just a moment in time with a profound viewing of the nature of creation. To a teenager it was just a neat experience that gave a few moments of profound insights, and then was gone. What I found later was the explanation for it all, along with a growing understanding of cooperating with the natural actions of time, space, and matter. Mathematical formulas, constructing geometric shapes we all study in school, really do have a connective tissue to the foundational structure of time and space, thus facilitating the manifestation of matter. Sitting in an advanced geometry class later that day, I became aware that many of the internal images and patterns I was seeing were indeed mathematical models of these equations, passed down through discovery and revelation of earlier inquisitors of the nature of matter. I couldn't understand what it all meant then. All I knew was that I was seeing these same patterns in the movements of my mind and the traveling of my thought during those days. Unfortunately I seemed to be the only one of my group of friends that went to those depths.
Many artists and computer animation wizards are creating the same images for mandalas, wormhole effects for movies, and the imagery of the inner journey expressed on canvas. I'm still in the quest of how it flows together; to understand its significance in the natural order of our evolution, which it seems to precipitate. I learned more when I got much older. The best lesson: You can take Heaven by storm... to stay, you have to walk in the front door on your own. What does that mean? Clean and clear, brothers and sisters... clean and clear. Awareness and behavior must perform with integrity in the universal transcendence that leads to community...One World.