Authority and Conviction
The analysis of authority and conviction brings varying opinions. For some reason I asked for viral meningitis back in the mid 80s. At least that is what a progressive self-initiating viewpoint might offer. I was in a very conflicting and difficult internal place dealing with a job that meant working with weapons that are airborne- helicopters, jets, and missiles for the Department of Defense. I was also feeling like there was no support in my marriage because instead of counseling or therapy, my wife chose to follow the pattern her mother set... involve other men. So I created a time for me to take stock in my own life's mission and purpose once again. I spent several weeks flat on my back with a headache so bad that I wished I could make my transition and free myself of the pain and turmoil. It was not meant to be and I learned to go much deeper into my own being and nature to find the place of peace within. It did not change what was happening on the outside. It sure gave me some clarity on the inside, though. I began to recognize how I had set up my own cognitive dissonance. The culmination of the current dilemmas produced the proverbial 'time out' that I had to take due to the fact that I could barely open my eyes because of the pain from the light, even in a darkened room. What does that say about the metaphor of keeping your light under a basket, huh?
Occasionally I
have to remind myself of the wonderful headaches when I get too focused on the
mundane and my mind wants too much control over processes that are not in my
best interests. Even understanding
the amazing ability to choose what you experience, sometimes we have to be
reminded to stop, listen, and look around us. As I paused by our pond in a moment of contemplation attempting to move through my
headache, I heard a cicada for the first time this year. It seems a bit early
for them here. Maybe I'm just not noticing time the way I used to; seeming to
move much faster as I get older. As I just relaxed and released to its song I felt a deep
sense of
gratitude. My headache subsided as my mind responded to the stillness. The song of the cicada reminded me of the
'white noise' that I've found many hear. I've used this 'noise' to help me
meditate as focusing on it without 'trying' to listen often decreases its pitch
and leads to some very interesting places in consciousness. In this 'pause for
the cause' I was gifted with the following stream of consciousness. A natural
desire for argument may cross your mind as you read however, I would ask that
you read with an open mind and heart as much as possible.
One who truly speaks with authority does so because they HAVE IT. It is a part
of them, often beyond the scope of their own knowing, exuding from their
presence even as a young person. When in positions of power and public view, leaders who speak
with authority can be heard not only with the head; the heart responds as well.
Their words are FELT in the depths of one's BEING. Everyone has felt the
difference at some point in their lives, whether verbally acknowledged or simply
logged in their own consciousness. Consider the difference when you are looking
for people to work with on a personal or professional basis. One does not need
an office or position to speak with authority of the heart. There are many who
weather the storm of personal, political, or professional resistance to
authenticity, honesty, and integrity of our natural desire to bond with one
another. We've been duped into believing that duality is a natural state of
being when in fact, non-duality is omnipresent, omnipotent, and omniscient.
Science is even proving the notion of an anthropic universe [life-friendly]
through quantum physics and complexology, a new field of study that uses a
holistic approach to understanding our physical world. Holistic philosophy, aka
spirituality, maintains that all things are connected. So we have no excuse for
not being responsible for the affects of our actions and thoughts.
One who speaks with unauthentic conviction, not having 'authority', is convicted
almost before they begin... of many false
beliefs because of the lack of FEELING. It is noticeable in the lack of
resonance in one's depths and
audiences recognize it as well, or at least some do. Emotional manipulation is
easy with these types as their mission is to intimidate (covertly and subtly)
the actions of the audience toward their own personal agenda or bias. There is
often a 'hidden' agenda behind this type of presentation. The awareness in our
own feeling without emotional attachment is intuitively how we know, or feel, we can
trust someone. The feeling is undeniable and the lack of it irrefutable when one
relies on the heart-felt resonance of vibration, whether uttered from the mouth
or displayed in print through one's words doesn't matter, it is in their energy
field for those who have the ability to feel. That would be everyone for those of you
wanting to feel separate from your own power now. It appears that our ability to
act as citizens prompted by this authentic presence and natural desire to be
friendly and loving toward others has been depressed and even subverted by those
who speak with a lack of authentic conviction, meaning their agendas do not
support life or love, even though they may say all the right words to make the
willing believers (our natural state is trust) feel safe. In fact, many have
become so desensitized by the rapid-fire information age that this natural
internal state of discernment and recognition has been lost.
Critical self-reflection as we listen to or read our own words is always
happening within the truth circuits of our naturally oriented love
consciousness, which resides in truth. "As I speak, therefore I AM" to
paraphrase a wise one. We have the ability to be Self-monitoring in alignment
with Divine Flow within us at ALL TIMES. We choose to remove ourselves from it.
It is that simple. All the kingdoms sing praise when you can stop and listen to
their song. Our natural state is one of love and surrender, faith and trust. This can also swell
into a torrent of energy, commanding resonance in ALL THAT IS when we focus on
the awareness of Oneness, non-duality thinking. We might call
this the 'War in Righteousness' that is beyond any ONE person yet is encompassed
by ALL. It is a sense of serenity that, paradoxically, disrupts anything that is
out of alignment with itself, humans being the most obvious example at this
time. Humans have in turn, affected their very survival by infecting the Earth
with their selfish acts backed by evil intent. btw... this is not the work of
some EVIL ONE. This was the choice of individuals who then drew together to
support one another. See what they/we have done? In the formality of
non-dualistic thinking, us and them become 'we' and there is no ego without
'wego' in the sense of our collective responsibility. Without pointing fingers,
we can acknowledge that life as we know it can get much better and we
have the methods and technology to affect change toward a more holistic local,
national, and global renaissance of simply looking out for one another instead
of destroying ourselves and our environment.
Now imagine what we could do with the same, or even greater, concerted effort in
calling for authentic authority and responsible action. Imagine what pure motives and unselfish behavior could do to turn the
tide of desire, desolation, and destruction. We often resist the religious
or spiritual messages that promote our divine unity and brother/sisterhood of
spirit across the sand-drawn boundaries of cultures and ethnic distinctions.
Recent scientific discoveries in tracking genetic lineage shows that we are all
related, so why are we not able to act as a family? Serendipitously, I had an experience when first contemplating the depth
of my connection just after going through a rather disheartening divorce. Being
adopted with no results of research for lineage, I have an over-riding "Who Am
I?" question that is a precursor to action of any depth in nature. One early morning
shortly after midnight in
June of '88 I asked the question internally and was answered externally by an
elder friend setting next to me. We had been talking about other matters earlier
so his verbal outburst would have made little or no sense had I not just asked
the question. His words were, "You are Zendor!" in a rather loud and
authoritative voice. He was not a 'channeler' or psychic that I was aware.
Still, out it came. As it did, my second sight turned on and the video screen
showed a starscape and stone-arched huge wooden castle door in the center, slowly opening
outward toward me. I laughed as I head the phrase, "door to what is" echo in my
head as I watched the scene silently. What a piece of work! I was in awe for
years...still am during these moments of reflection and writing. It makes me
realize how small I am in the great generosity of God. Still, what the heck do
you do with experiences like this?
Now I'm going to take it to another level, so remember that I asked for an open
mind and heart as you read further. I'm not asking you to believe a thing that I
write.
Many believe that we came from somewhere else initially and have been watched
for millennia by our predecessors or progenitors. Much like the Star Trek Prime Directive, in order for our ancestry (forefathers, space families, or whatever you
wish to call them) to engage actively with our Earth, logic would seem to
dictate that we must first meet some
requirements mandated for developing civilizations before they can be taken into any
Confederation of Planets or Galactic Federation of any kind. I'd say that makes
good sense, wouldn't you? Barbarians on the loose in space just doesn't sound
like a good idea now does it? So what must happen? What are their
requirements? What do we need to do? If there is some 'event' looming in our
near future? What exactly could it be? Is it truly conceivable that a whole
planet could be wiped out? Would it be possible to avoid it? What does this 'end
of time' scenario really mean? What can we demonstrate of our knowledge
to date? What does the scientific evidence, empirical and unemotional, give
indication toward possible outcomes? As I understand it TRUTH is pure,
intuitive, logical thought which then translates into a multitude of sensations
within the mind/body/spirit complex of the SOUL. Where does it all lead? Do we
really have a choice in the matter, or is it simply an imminent program poised
in the cosmic computer queue ready to self-correct? Hmmmm.... Imagine that... on
all levels of our known existence and more. Resources that are currently
allocated to less-than-friendly actions need to be redistributed to
life-friendly causes, eh? And what of the effect of thought on our personal
experience or our environment?
Love is said to be the true foundation of the Galactic Federation or
Confederation of Planets, and the mission of the Ashtar
Command as many are finding in their search for extraterrestrial assistance in
the face of non-conformity of life-friendly international actions on the
planet's surface now. Quite a number would probably find the idea of such an organization
totally coming from fantasy land. Maybe it does. Truth is often stranger than fiction. To some, just the opposite is true as well. To
those of the latter mindset the agenda of the Ashtar Command makes perfect sense
and they live in quiet support of it. So
much has been happening to a certain portion of the planetary population that
cause for concern, possibly consideration, is noteworthy in the expansion of our
knowledge base in the information age.
Those who feel some level of participation in the AC's precepts sense a greater
connectivity to cosmic cooperation and even cosmic consciousness - awareness of non-duality
thinking and living. In most circles who are aware or feel involved, the AC is
known for its Divinely-driven spiritual and material union for the benefit of
all mankind, like a self-correcting program. It could be said that we are that self-correcting program that is now operational
and seeking to serve humanity in a most profound and prophetic way. As with
any vision, someone has to see it, hold it, and share it without fear of
repercussion in order to bring it into manifestation. It has to
anchor into the consciousness of ONE first, and that ONE may be thousands in
body, before it can manifest ubiquitously amongst humanity. This is what has to
be realized as a
collective organization before anything can proceed. Each one has assigned
duties. I know this because I remember the meetings on board (conscious and
participating in the process), while many others
were in a dream state, unable to recall upon awakening yet having a faint
remembrance. Some remember bits and
pieces of such encounters and ignore them as some manifestation of archetypal
imagery being addressed in the psyche. The mental health professionals have been
perplexed for decades regarding these experiences and stories of questionable
validity for lack of proof. Still others have full memories of these
experiences that are beyond the 'normal' scope of dreamtime. Indigenous elders
have shared that we can affect and are affected by our dreamtime work. One set
of these meetings, for me, lasted
for nearly a week in February, 2001. Some of you may begin recalling them
as you are reading these words. That means its working, beyond your belief, and
you remember the EXPERIENCE. Now here's the kicker... do you actually remember
or do you WANT to have been there so bad that you create a memory of it? Just
relax... all things will be revealed in time. Others of you may want to totally
disregard this paragraph. I've been called many things for my authentic
expressions and questions of 'reality;' most of them not so nice. I realize it is nothing personal -
concepts and ideas are the triggers and I'm just a guy writing about his
contemplations and ponderances of life's offerings. I have to admit that I often
have sincere doubts until I run into someone that says they met me on board or
saw me while there.
Now that this door has opened for you, if indeed it has, it will take a bit of time for the
memories to surface, or not, to the point of actually performing your assigned duties
if you have them -
divinely orchestrated and perfect just for you. Truly.. I'm not sure everyone
has a 'mission' of this type.
There seems to be a natural hierarchy of order within this process, like the
organizational structure of a large corporation. If this seems like total
fabrication and science fiction, then it probably isn't for you. This process is
beyond any one of my wildest
dreams and possibly the culmination of all of them. Its magnitude and potential for success is beyond belief,
yet very real as the potential of conscious activity proven by quantum physics
and doctoral level metaphysicians continues to grow. Literally it
is appearing as through a mandate of Creators', so to speak, being a natural process for our planet and people
at this juncture in the development of our specie. For those that have the eyes
to see and the ears to hear, my words may resonate with some authority, not
because I wish to lead; because you are inextricably part of the process, too. No ONE of us is any better than
another. Each has their role, and like the corporate hierarchy, each role is
just as important to the achievement of the goals and objectives. To the rest of you it may just sound
like it makes sense, but you have your doubts or you may feel like you are
someone specially sanctioned to deliver a message. I think I got over the messianic complex long ago, even though it
still rears its little head occasionally in my feeling world. Those who resonate
with this kind of experience know the plan is about representing a
collective soul of sorts, the Christ Consciousness (Cosmic Consciousness) based
in love and natural order of creation, beyond heretofore 'human' understanding,
which becomes the outpicturing of faith and trust.
This is how Creator will dwell with Man, in my opinion. There is still much more as we are indeed
sons and daughters of this Creator, Source, the ONE or whatever your word
is in your region of the world. Of course the original texts
refer to Creator in the plural. The three suns I
was shown over a decade ago may hold the key. What could that mean? That would mean ancestry
that bridges quantum physics and religion. We
intuitively know of the ONE deep within us, yet there are many aspects that
evolve in and around us. We've been collectively unaware of
anything in between the dots we've connected. It has been referred to as the
'dark matter' that exists between particles of light, such as the proton,
neutron, and electron. Imagine that! The current rapidly dwindling mindset would
have you believe that there is a huge chasm between us and our Creator with little to
no hope of ever reaching the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth. Would that ancestry reside in
what we call Heaven? What really is Heaven? What about bringing it to Earth? Could
Creator exist in the
'space' between the dots so that as we reconnect them, re-link our natural state,
Creator's presence is
unmistakably present. Religion, after all, means reunion with Creator. Quantum physics is proving the theory mathematically. I
say we can prove it physically with a trance-end-dance of dualistic consciousness
and movement toward
the natural harmony of the mind and heart. This seems to be happening
beyond any personal opinions to the contrary. Would that
ancestry maybe be connected to a few already? Hmmmm....
Beyond any appearance of self-absorbed or arrogant behavior, my intentions
have always been to be submissive to possibility, faith and trust in a new world
order of holistic proportions that fully demonstrates what we have been calling
LOVE. Supposedly this is what everything is... limitless oscillating vibrational
energy... LOVE. We've known for some time now, through scientific discovery,
that everything has a vibration - from dis-ease to the purest light. Knowing that as my knowledge
grows my ignorance often exponentiates, I approach every situation with an open
mind and heart. I encourage you to approach your every day lives in the same
manner. I know that in that genuine openness, vulnerability and the innocence of
a child, which equates to faith and trust is the ultimate protection
from any harm. Every religion speaks to this point. I'm not asking you to believe any of this. Your own experience
will either confirm or deny these things for you. At least it makes for a good
story and could potentially have an awesome conclusion. The truth is, for me at
least, that I'm still unraveling the enigma, the cosmic conundrum of 'what does
this all mean and what I am suppose to do?' It is a very humbling experience I
might add. I hope you've enjoyed
the read.
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